It was not meant to be anyway. I cried. I prayed. I begged. I asked God to save my relationship. But nothing worked. He kept sailing away. With his words he kept stabbing me. With his actions he threatened to annihilate me. I lost faith in me. I grew resentful. I blamed myself for everything. He made me believe it was all my fault. I hated every man. But I gradually let the anger disperse out of my system... I had to. Remaining angry took some power of me. It made me feel trapped. I misdirected my anger at the wrong people. I allowed one life tragedy to be all I know. Yes! Tragedy! I was taught fear. And I chose to hung on it. I'm hung on to it...NOT anymore.
I'm picking up the pieces of a love that once I knew. Wondering what tomorrow will bring...
Slowing down
